Every morning, without fail, she put her depression and the misery of her marriage in the dryer that stood in the kitchen good only for countertop space and storing the 20 lb bag of potatoes we seemed to live on. Every morning, without fail She sang in her happy, lilting voice, “good morning, Sunshine!” as…
Last night, while I was sleeping far from you, my heart was growing bigger. I woke up this morning to find that my chest could barely contain its volume. It is growing still. I can feel its edges becoming blurry as it widens beyond the confines into blood and bone, Until every organ carries…
Sometimes I can’t shake this sadness in spite of all my training. I can’t seem to wish myself into happiness, Whitewash it with a positive affirmation or two or twenty. I cannot kill the thoughts that shatter me, throw a pretty sofa cover on a raggedy and misshapen couch. So, my sadness and I sit…
For Kathy Lee Kappmeir Just as the doctors predicted upon her diagnosis, she held out for two years in spite of her conviction that holistic treatments and prayers to Hindu gods and goddesses would heal the body that had betrayed her life of clean living. Two arduous years, three 2-hour phone calls each…
We have been trained in the way of princess and savior. Cinderella stories of powerless victimization rescued by some prince with a little magical help from above. It is not our strength, our fortitude or our cleverness, we are told, that will create the bridge from present to future. Rather, it is man or magic…
Everybody needs a God. Now, if you’re an atheist and that puts you on edge, read on, ‘cause there’s a place for you in here as well. The first thing we need to do in order to understand this phrase is to deconstruct the word God. Having been a born-again Christian in my youth, deconstructing…
Touch is the first sense to develop in utero and often the last sense to leave before death. Of the five major senses (touch, sight, hearing, smell, taste), touch is the only one that we cannot live without. It is so critical to survival and to physical development that vulnerable infants who are deprived touch…
I often say that it is not our issues that are really our biggest difficulty; our biggest difficulty is the issues we have with our issues. We often cannot even get to addressing the issue at hand because we are so burdened by our judgment for even having an issue in the first place. When…
I’ve been on the planet for a good amount of time now, and have learned quite a bit along the way. And while there is a beauty in accumulating a wad of skills and wisdom, there is also a shadow in that I can get a subtle kind of egotism around such wisdom. For example,…
Love, when it comes to you, will not do your bidding. It will not land on the convenient person because you will it to be so. Love will not hand to you on a platter the one that matched your fantasies of Mr. or Mrs. Right Instead, love will give to you someone real….
